Think how I feel?

It has definitely been long since the last update and I have not fixed my modem yet.Am using my bro's laptop now and it feels so weird.

But definitely not as weird as just now. It was just so wrong. And to be brutally honest, I was almost nonchalant about it. That is where it went wrong.

I had the intention to re-narrate the whole story to clear up where it could go wrong but seriously not now. The pc is too foreign to "pen" my emos and then it suggested to let it be.

If you read and you bother...I just have a song for you.
I used to think this song is for separated couples but oddly this just somehow fits to the picture, except there's no tears and I never want anything that's yours and then ...not anything to do with us anymore.

Honestly there is no hard feelings. It's just that when somethings, you make a wrong move..that's it. I have good memories of us and it doesnt hurt me anymore to keep it with me.It's the shame that the future has none of those anymore. 12 July 05 was the last straw for me. I thought a simple sms would be able to salvage but then no more.

The more I want to explain what was felt, the more unnecessary the whole post has to begin.
I just miss blogging and I've tons of pics to put up here.

Darn!

And here's my song to you.


Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star


I'm somewhat happy that you are doing fine in your world and I am happy to be in mine.